Category: Diary
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I DON’T Have Cancer!
Hi. I don’t have cancer. I’M CANCER FREE!!!! Nine months ago today I announced to the world “I have cancer.” Three words that changed my life irrevocably. Nine months ago yesterday Jim and I were packing up our campsite and I got The Call. We’d gone camping so I would be distracted while waiting for…
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I Don’t Want You to See This
I really, really don’t want anyone to see this, but in my effort to be open, honest, and transparent about this whole cancer BS, I can’t only post the pictures where I feel somewhat “pretty.” Zits. I have zits. I’ve never had zits. Maybe one, but rarely plural and never acne. I now have zits.…
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Be a Calla Lily
Calla Lilies are my favorite flower. They’re strong, graceful, elegant, and beautiful. Jim bought me a calla lily plant for Mother’s Day in 2019. It did well and I kept it alive, although it didn’t produce more flowers after the first season. Then last fall, it died. Or so I thought. I almost threw it…
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Today was a good day
Today was a good day. Today was a chemo day. Today was a good day because it was a chemo day. Now, those are words I never thought I’d say, but after feeling good for the last week and feeling more like me than I have since before The Mammogram, I was excited to go…
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Taxol – A Lesson in Trust
Confession: when they told me that Taxol would be easier, I didn’t believe them. Oh, me of little faith. I should have. I trust my team. But, after my last round of AC – Adriamycin/Cytoxan – I was scared. They told me that AC was much more difficult and that the effects were cumulative. They…
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12 Wigs of Christmas – Day 12!
I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to write today. I had more severe nausea last night and today I was exhausted. I woke up in time to make it to my appointment for the injection, came home and napped after some ramen noodle, and woke up around five refreshed and feeling like a brand…